Hmm. Been feeling like a fool.
Well. I do have the personality of a fool.
Well. Whatever la.
Be loved, Be hated, Be liked, Be disliked.
All familiar feelings.
All being the reason why I'm as cold as stone.
I've reviewed my past.
I realized a lot of things.
I let go for a long time.
She only came back for that moment but left again.
And she never came back.
I've been deluding myself.
Tch. I can't believe it.
Am I really that useless?
The thought of it makes my skin crawl with disgust for myself.
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface.
I need someone who will love me.
Someone who can cherish me and tell me what I should do.
But it'll come. In the end.
So I'll just live my life.
Being thankful for what I do got.
And stop looking at what I don't got.
After all. Life is an interesting journey.
Peaks and valleys. Twist and turns.
You'll never know where it'll take you.
You could get the surprise of your life.
Sometimes on the way to where you going.
You'd be thinking. 'This is the worst time of my life.'
But at the end of the road, you've passed that adveristy.
If you can get where you want it to be.
Remember what don't kill you make you stronger.
On the way to the top, you'd do anythin.
But how'd you get back your life when you get there?
That's my question.
I've made many mistakes.
Many wrong turns and choices.
I've fallen more times than I can count.
But it's not too late.
I've got a heart that's bigger than my head.
The ability to be cold or warm.
The immense patience that can tolerate as much bullshit as anyone can throw.
That's all I'll need for now.
To live through the hell-bound journey I'm attending.
Yeah. That's just my dilemma.

Heh. Guess what?
Looks like I did it again.
They violate in a major way.