Hi
Bye.
xxx
RYAN™
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
God damn!
I finally found the problem with my posting time.
It was set 8 hours back.
-.-lll
I can't believe it.
No wonder it never made sense!
I swear to god!
Well, whatever.
That's over. one more problem struck off my list.
Countdown.
5 more days.
CS/Slack time here I come.
I can finally get the vacation I need.
Even if it is for just a day. :D
Later small peoples!
xxx
RYAN™
I finally found the problem with my posting time.
It was set 8 hours back.
-.-lll
I can't believe it.
No wonder it never made sense!
I swear to god!
Well, whatever.
That's over. one more problem struck off my list.
Countdown.
5 more days.
CS/Slack time here I come.
I can finally get the vacation I need.
Even if it is for just a day. :D
Later small peoples!
xxx
RYAN™
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Nothing to do.
Kinda bored.
Went to Zedge for some handphone themes.
Quite nice. And alot of stuff.
Even got games.
I'm feeling bored.
Anyone entertain me or talk to me.
Just don't let me feel suicidal already.
Oh and Ivy, if you're reading this,
Hello. ;D
Kinda bored.
Went to Zedge for some handphone themes.
Quite nice. And alot of stuff.
Even got games.
I'm feeling bored.
Anyone entertain me or talk to me.
Just don't let me feel suicidal already.
Oh and Ivy, if you're reading this,
Hello. ;D
Monday, November 24, 2008
I'm feeling suicidal.
I was enlightened by Nicole a few hours ago.
It speared me nonetheless.
I just feel that things are getting more out of hand.
I don't know how much I can take.
I could very well take a knife and drive it through my neck one day.
It's all a matter of time.
Time never waits for anyone.
I want to turn back time.
Back to when I was still ignorant.
To a time where I need not care about anything.
Please.
Kami-sama. Jikan yo Tomare.
I'm suffering hard inside.
Dying.
Chipping away, bit by bit.
Slowly. Surely.
Stop Time. Please.
I don't want to face reality anymore.
I don't want to face anyone anymore.
I don't want anything anymore.
I don't want.
I was enlightened by Nicole a few hours ago.
It speared me nonetheless.
I just feel that things are getting more out of hand.
I don't know how much I can take.
I could very well take a knife and drive it through my neck one day.
It's all a matter of time.
Time never waits for anyone.
I want to turn back time.
Back to when I was still ignorant.
To a time where I need not care about anything.
Please.
Kami-sama. Jikan yo Tomare.
I'm suffering hard inside.
Dying.
Chipping away, bit by bit.
Slowly. Surely.
Stop Time. Please.
I don't want to face reality anymore.
I don't want to face anyone anymore.
I don't want anything anymore.
I don't want.
Costumes came in today. It looked surprisingly nice.
My pants rocked! Looked like skinnies.
I was laughing like hell at how most of the girls looked.
She looked stunning though.
she always seemed to stand out from the rest.
To me..
But I was kinda pissed to smile at her uniqueness.
Especially with 3 Sons of Bitches who were talking like no one's business.
Okay, So I'm not pissed anymore.
But still. They should have kept their volume down.
Acting like it was their house. Pisses me off.
People like them irk me.
I'll need to apologize tomorrow though.
Shouldn't have snapped at them.
Did some house work earlier.
Hate my sister.
Acts as though everyone owes her a living.
----------------
Now playing: Kotoko - Princess Brave
via FoxyTunes
My pants rocked! Looked like skinnies.
I was laughing like hell at how most of the girls looked.
She looked stunning though.
she always seemed to stand out from the rest.
To me..
But I was kinda pissed to smile at her uniqueness.
Especially with 3 Sons of Bitches who were talking like no one's business.
Okay, So I'm not pissed anymore.
But still. They should have kept their volume down.
Acting like it was their house. Pisses me off.
People like them irk me.
I'll need to apologize tomorrow though.
Shouldn't have snapped at them.
Did some house work earlier.
Hate my sister.
Acts as though everyone owes her a living.
----------------
Now playing: Kotoko - Princess Brave
via FoxyTunes
Saturday, November 22, 2008
I feel so guilty.
She told me a made her sad often.
I didn't know what I had done before.
Now, I know. And it hurts.
The kind of heart wrenching pain.
It's tearing me apart.
No one can tell though.
I'm good at keeping things to myself.
I've changed, a-lot.
What started as a facade 3 years ago.
It's now become what everyone knows as me.
The kind of darkness you've never seen.
I know.
I'll probably help His Infernal Majesty down there soon.
I've seen you.
Don't lie. I know you're there. Calling me.
Using my parent's voice.
Or my classmates.
Sometimes, using her voice.
I know you want me.
Soon. The Dark Lord will have my soul soon.
I see them again.
Dark humanoid figures.
Am I hallucinating?
Or have I just.. Lost it?
I don't know. Not anymore.
I don't care anymore.
But I'll wait. I'll always will.
Always.
xxx
RYAN™
----------------
Now playing: Caramell - Caramelldansen (Speedy Cake Remix)
via FoxyTunes
She told me a made her sad often.
I didn't know what I had done before.
Now, I know. And it hurts.
The kind of heart wrenching pain.
It's tearing me apart.
No one can tell though.
I'm good at keeping things to myself.
I've changed, a-lot.
What started as a facade 3 years ago.
It's now become what everyone knows as me.
The kind of darkness you've never seen.
I know.
I'll probably help His Infernal Majesty down there soon.
I've seen you.
Don't lie. I know you're there. Calling me.
Using my parent's voice.
Or my classmates.
Sometimes, using her voice.
I know you want me.
Soon. The Dark Lord will have my soul soon.
I see them again.
Dark humanoid figures.
Am I hallucinating?
Or have I just.. Lost it?
I don't know. Not anymore.
I don't care anymore.
But I'll wait. I'll always will.
Always.
xxx
RYAN™
----------------
Now playing: Caramell - Caramelldansen (Speedy Cake Remix)
via FoxyTunes
Friday, November 21, 2008
Tis time for sleep. Welcome back to the darkness.
You scream as the gun backfires.
You shut your eyes as you hear metal striking metal.
You open your eyes.
A ballistic shield seems to have dropped.
You mutter the word 'Lucky'.
You drop the gun and pick up a pistol.
You check it.
It's in working condition and already loaded.
You fire a few shots.
The doll flinches and and jumps back unharmed.
You run for the door and make it out.
The doll's shadow starts to dance.
The atmosphere itself feels eerie.
The shadow takes form as you see a two horned figure.
It's face is that of a goat.
The goat calls out.
You scream in fear as the goat's face melts away, revealing a more human one.
You wake up, panting.
It was all a dream.
But the gun is still with you.
You look around.
Looks like part of your dream was real.
People are alive and walk the streets of San Fransisco.
However, you see the doll grinning eerily at you from the roof opposite of you.
You ball your hands in anger and mostly fear.
The doll has wings which rip out from the fabric.
It jumps off the building and flies towards you, it's claws longer than before.
You scream as the claw heads straight for your head.
Tis time to stop. We'll stop here for now.
xxx
RYAN™
You scream as the gun backfires.
You shut your eyes as you hear metal striking metal.
You open your eyes.
A ballistic shield seems to have dropped.
You mutter the word 'Lucky'.
You drop the gun and pick up a pistol.
You check it.
It's in working condition and already loaded.
You fire a few shots.
The doll flinches and and jumps back unharmed.
You run for the door and make it out.
The doll's shadow starts to dance.
The atmosphere itself feels eerie.
The shadow takes form as you see a two horned figure.
It's face is that of a goat.
The goat calls out.
You scream in fear as the goat's face melts away, revealing a more human one.
You wake up, panting.
It was all a dream.
But the gun is still with you.
You look around.
Looks like part of your dream was real.
People are alive and walk the streets of San Fransisco.
However, you see the doll grinning eerily at you from the roof opposite of you.
You ball your hands in anger and mostly fear.
The doll has wings which rip out from the fabric.
It jumps off the building and flies towards you, it's claws longer than before.
You scream as the claw heads straight for your head.
Tis time to stop. We'll stop here for now.
xxx
RYAN™
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Let's take a silent peek into the mind of me. Tis a dark place for the sane.
A twisted version of a lullaby plays.
One can see wilted trees, branches pointed out.
The sky is red. The rain, black.
Lightning rides the sky.
You see figures behind the dead trees.
They shift in and out.
You look down and see a rag doll.
You pick it up.
It seems to have been dropped by a young child.
The doll's smile start to turn eerie.
It's arms move on it's own.
Sharp claws rip out of the fabric.
It says something but you cannot hear.
Out of fear, you quickly throw it and run.
You see a sign. It says 'Welcome to L.A'
The streets are littered.
Dead bodies all over.
The doll sees you.
'No use resisting' it says.
Your legs start moving.
You head for the munitions shop instinctively.
"No use running" The doll hums.
You try to enter but the door is locked.
You break the window and enter.
You're lucky. The equipment is in good shape.
You pick the shotgun as the door breaks down.
You load it as the little doll walks in.
"Death is looking for you" it sings.
You try to fire, but the gun is jammed.
The doll closes in. slowly, but surely.
You panic and pull the trigger.
The shotgun backfires into your face.
Tis time to awake. You won't go any further than that in my twisted mind.
xxx
RYAN™
A twisted version of a lullaby plays.
One can see wilted trees, branches pointed out.
The sky is red. The rain, black.
Lightning rides the sky.
You see figures behind the dead trees.
They shift in and out.
You look down and see a rag doll.
You pick it up.
It seems to have been dropped by a young child.
The doll's smile start to turn eerie.
It's arms move on it's own.
Sharp claws rip out of the fabric.
It says something but you cannot hear.
Out of fear, you quickly throw it and run.
You see a sign. It says 'Welcome to L.A'
The streets are littered.
Dead bodies all over.
The doll sees you.
'No use resisting' it says.
Your legs start moving.
You head for the munitions shop instinctively.
"No use running" The doll hums.
You try to enter but the door is locked.
You break the window and enter.
You're lucky. The equipment is in good shape.
You pick the shotgun as the door breaks down.
You load it as the little doll walks in.
"Death is looking for you" it sings.
You try to fire, but the gun is jammed.
The doll closes in. slowly, but surely.
You panic and pull the trigger.
The shotgun backfires into your face.
Tis time to awake. You won't go any further than that in my twisted mind.
xxx
RYAN™
Friday, November 14, 2008
Decided to rip this from Nic's blog.
Rules & Regulations :
#01; - Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
#02; - People who get tagged need to write a post of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
#03; - At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
#04; - No tags back!
1. I have an odd craving for blood. It's once every few months.
2. Contrary to popular belief, I actually DO study if I bother to.
3. When I roleplay seriously, my attitude becomes the character's.
4. I spend alot of time on CrunchyRoll.
5. I review on flash works in Newgrounds.
6. I have mades OCs for Sonic the Hedgehog.
7. I adore the fact Sonic can use Chaos control in Super form.
8. I have the tendency to rip stuff from other people's blogs.
9. My beatboxing is mediocre, compared to Ding Chao. Crap in fact.
10. I lie often. And I'm 98% successful out of all of my attempts.
I tag: Chanel, DEEYANA, Irina, Lucas, Joanna, Shakinah, Iscariot, Gwen, Carissa and Charmaine to do this.
Good night y'all!
xxx
RYAN™
Rules & Regulations :
#01; - Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
#02; - People who get tagged need to write a post of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
#03; - At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
#04; - No tags back!
1. I have an odd craving for blood. It's once every few months.
2. Contrary to popular belief, I actually DO study if I bother to.
3. When I roleplay seriously, my attitude becomes the character's.
4. I spend alot of time on CrunchyRoll.
5. I review on flash works in Newgrounds.
6. I have mades OCs for Sonic the Hedgehog.
7. I adore the fact Sonic can use Chaos control in Super form.
8. I have the tendency to rip stuff from other people's blogs.
9. My beatboxing is mediocre, compared to Ding Chao. Crap in fact.
10. I lie often. And I'm 98% successful out of all of my attempts.
I tag: Chanel, DEEYANA, Irina, Lucas, Joanna, Shakinah, Iscariot, Gwen, Carissa and Charmaine to do this.
Good night y'all!
xxx
RYAN™
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Good morning everyone!
I got promoted to Sec 4!
I'd like to honour some people here.
By the way, the lower your name is found, the higher the honour!
Thank you to the Lord for answering my prayers
Thank you to Xing Hao, Racheal and Deborah for encouraging and blessing me.
Thank you to Maine and Yuko for the good luck blessings.
Thank you to Guan Yin Ma for answering my pleas.
Thank you to my pro gamer cousin Lucas for all the encouragement and blessings.
Thank you to my Stingy Fairy Godmother Joanna for granting my wish.
Last but not least, Thank you to my best friend Nicole for all the encouragement, blessings and prayers(I think) for me.
(Tag if you think I've forgotten you)
That's all! I am soooo happy! Thanks everyone.
xxx
RYAN™
I got promoted to Sec 4!
I'd like to honour some people here.
By the way, the lower your name is found, the higher the honour!
Thank you to the Lord for answering my prayers
Thank you to Xing Hao, Racheal and Deborah for encouraging and blessing me.
Thank you to Maine and Yuko for the good luck blessings.
Thank you to Guan Yin Ma for answering my pleas.
Thank you to my pro gamer cousin Lucas for all the encouragement and blessings.
Thank you to my Stingy Fairy Godmother Joanna for granting my wish.
Last but not least, Thank you to my best friend Nicole for all the encouragement, blessings and prayers(I think) for me.
(Tag if you think I've forgotten you)
That's all! I am soooo happy! Thanks everyone.
xxx
RYAN™
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Saturday, November 8, 2008
3 posts in a day. Well. .I owe this..
Name 20 people whom you know.
20ppl
1.Nicole
2.Yuko
3.Maine
4.Joanna
5.Lucas
6.Gwen
7.Iscariot
8.MichelleMUM
9.Joelynn
10.Irina.
11.Laiman
12.JocMAMA
13.ChanelMAMI
14.JasMA
15.WenQianMOTHER
16.Jun Jie
17.Korin
18.AmeliaMEI
19.Siew Hui
20.Alec
Quiz
1.How did you meet 15?[WenQianMOTHER]
Through MichMUMMY
2.Do you love number 5?[Lucas]
We're cousins. and something like brother's I guess.
3.What happens if 1 goes out with 20[Nicole and Alec]
WHAT?? I don't think it'll happen
4.Have you bathed with 13?[ChanelMAMI]
What? No!
5.Have you slapped 16's butt?[Jun Jie]
No! What are you?! Some sick pervert?!
6.If 19 proposes to you, would you accept?[Siew Hui]
No. I'd run away immediately.
7.If 10 left you and suddenly went with 7, what would you do?[Irina and Iscariot]
Like I care. I wanna see if they'll ever meet.
8.Would ue die for 14?[JasMA]
Guess so! She's of my cherished God-Mothers
9.Do you think 12's a hottie?[JocMAMA]
Thou shalt not answer or I'll be running with her NPCC unit after me.
10.Do you think 18 is wooing 2?[AmeliaMEI and Yuko]
Nope. They don't know each other.
11.What do you think of 7?[Iscariot]
DJMax2 Master and a god-wannabe
12.Did you have a crush on 3 before?[Maine]
Eck! NO! She's my daughter.
13.If 4 likes 9, but 9 likes you, what would you do?[Joanna and Joelynn]
They already like each other. And Joelynn will never like me LOL.
14.What would you do if 8's suffering from cancer?[MichMUM]
I'd seriously die or cry from shock. I mean it.
15.If 11 buys a bra for 6, what color do you'll think it'll be?[Laiman and Gwen]
I don't know. But they don't know each other.
ANYWAY.
To some of you out there.
You're lucky that you have true friends.
Learn to cherish them.
Name 20 people whom you know.
20ppl
1.Nicole
2.Yuko
3.Maine
4.Joanna
5.Lucas
6.Gwen
7.Iscariot
8.MichelleMUM
9.Joelynn
10.Irina.
11.Laiman
12.JocMAMA
13.ChanelMAMI
14.JasMA
15.WenQianMOTHER
16.Jun Jie
17.Korin
18.AmeliaMEI
19.Siew Hui
20.Alec
Quiz
1.How did you meet 15?[WenQianMOTHER]
Through MichMUMMY
2.Do you love number 5?[Lucas]
We're cousins. and something like brother's I guess.
3.What happens if 1 goes out with 20[Nicole and Alec]
WHAT?? I don't think it'll happen
4.Have you bathed with 13?[ChanelMAMI]
What? No!
5.Have you slapped 16's butt?[Jun Jie]
No! What are you?! Some sick pervert?!
6.If 19 proposes to you, would you accept?[Siew Hui]
No. I'd run away immediately.
7.If 10 left you and suddenly went with 7, what would you do?[Irina and Iscariot]
Like I care. I wanna see if they'll ever meet.
8.Would ue die for 14?[JasMA]
Guess so! She's of my cherished God-Mothers
9.Do you think 12's a hottie?[JocMAMA]
Thou shalt not answer or I'll be running with her NPCC unit after me.
10.Do you think 18 is wooing 2?[AmeliaMEI and Yuko]
Nope. They don't know each other.
11.What do you think of 7?[Iscariot]
DJMax2 Master and a god-wannabe
12.Did you have a crush on 3 before?[Maine]
Eck! NO! She's my daughter.
13.If 4 likes 9, but 9 likes you, what would you do?[Joanna and Joelynn]
They already like each other. And Joelynn will never like me LOL.
14.What would you do if 8's suffering from cancer?[MichMUM]
I'd seriously die or cry from shock. I mean it.
15.If 11 buys a bra for 6, what color do you'll think it'll be?[Laiman and Gwen]
I don't know. But they don't know each other.
ANYWAY.
To some of you out there.
You're lucky that you have true friends.
Learn to cherish them.
Friday, November 7, 2008
Right. Hello Everyone.
I did maths re-exam yesterday and I am really proud of myself.
I did every question and not a single blank. Heh.
I also feel that people in 303 and soon to be 403 are scary.
In a good way. LOL. But really.
Thanks to Yuko, Racheal, Deborah and Maine for the encouragement.
By the way, I'm utterly convinced I have Cain's mark.
Yey! I'm cursed for eternity!
Anyway, Dad came home.
He isn't making noise. A good thing. I hope.
Okay. End here. Bah.
Special Pic. Only for today.
This kind of stuff will never come out again.
Have a nice evening everyone.
I did maths re-exam yesterday and I am really proud of myself.
I did every question and not a single blank. Heh.
I also feel that people in 303 and soon to be 403 are scary.
In a good way. LOL. But really.
Thanks to Yuko, Racheal, Deborah and Maine for the encouragement.
By the way, I'm utterly convinced I have Cain's mark.
Yey! I'm cursed for eternity!
Anyway, Dad came home.
He isn't making noise. A good thing. I hope.
Okay. End here. Bah.
Special Pic. Only for today.
This kind of stuff will never come out again.
Have a nice evening everyone.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Wow. Using my 81st post to do a Quiz. How cheap.
Tagged by:Charmaine;PandaNUER
1. Do you have secrets?
No not really. ^^
2. Will you fall in love with a girl that is younger than you?
Uhmm.. That would be a definite yes.
3.Do you enjoy going to school?
Somewhat. Better than rotting at home
4.Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Maybe.. Maybe not.. Depends.
5.Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Both. Though sometimes it better to not have loved at all.
6.What would you do if you have a billion dollars?
SPEND!On whatever I want.
7.List out your 15 favourite songs.
When I Grow Up- Pussycat Dolls
In Stereo-Fort Minor
Renegade- Eminem ft. Jay-Z
Sound Of My Dreams(Chinese)-Unknown.
Streamline-Newton
Brightdown-Nami Tamaki
Doubt and Trust-Access
Honey Honey- xxxHoLiC 1st ED[Unknown artist]
88-LM.C
Boys and Girls-LM.C
Laugh Away-YUI
CHERRY-YUI
Rolling Star-YUI
Superman-[Forgot who] Hotshot. Victory dance song
Never Be Replaced-1st Ladi
8.If the person you liked has already attached, what would you do?
I'd wait.
9.Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Uhh.. Getting to Sec 4.
10.What makes you angry?
Twitters and the usual.
11.How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Older. Possibly married
12.Who is currently the most important people to you?
Ehh.. I don't know. Joanna, Maine and Nicole F. Laurens.
13.What is the most important thing in life?
MY STUDIES RIGHT NOW.
14.Would you be rather single and rich or married but poor?
uhh... Never contemplated it. No idea
15.You prefer fresh milk or chocolate milk?
Fresh.
16.Would you give all in a relationship?
Yes. Needless to say.
17.If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, which would you pick?
One that would accept me for who I am.
18.Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
Probably. I'm very tolerant.
19.What would you want to tell the person that you like?
I Love You. ^^
20.What type of person will you fall in love with?
Smart, pretty and somewhat shorter than me. Oh and you must be ADORABLE!
The 8 people who are going to do this quiz:
-Joanna
-Nicole
-Erena
-Kenji
-Iscariot
-Gwen
-Lucas
-MICHMUMMY!
Tagged by:Charmaine;PandaNUER
1. Do you have secrets?
No not really. ^^
2. Will you fall in love with a girl that is younger than you?
Uhmm.. That would be a definite yes.
3.Do you enjoy going to school?
Somewhat. Better than rotting at home
4.Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Maybe.. Maybe not.. Depends.
5.Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Both. Though sometimes it better to not have loved at all.
6.What would you do if you have a billion dollars?
SPEND!On whatever I want.
7.List out your 15 favourite songs.
When I Grow Up- Pussycat Dolls
In Stereo-Fort Minor
Renegade- Eminem ft. Jay-Z
Sound Of My Dreams(Chinese)-Unknown.
Streamline-Newton
Brightdown-Nami Tamaki
Doubt and Trust-Access
Honey Honey- xxxHoLiC 1st ED[Unknown artist]
88-LM.C
Boys and Girls-LM.C
Laugh Away-YUI
CHERRY-YUI
Rolling Star-YUI
Superman-[Forgot who] Hotshot. Victory dance song
Never Be Replaced-1st Ladi
8.If the person you liked has already attached, what would you do?
I'd wait.
9.Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Uhh.. Getting to Sec 4.
10.What makes you angry?
Twitters and the usual.
11.How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Older. Possibly married
12.Who is currently the most important people to you?
Ehh.. I don't know. Joanna, Maine and Nicole F. Laurens.
13.What is the most important thing in life?
MY STUDIES RIGHT NOW.
14.Would you be rather single and rich or married but poor?
uhh... Never contemplated it. No idea
15.You prefer fresh milk or chocolate milk?
Fresh.
16.Would you give all in a relationship?
Yes. Needless to say.
17.If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, which would you pick?
One that would accept me for who I am.
18.Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
Probably. I'm very tolerant.
19.What would you want to tell the person that you like?
I Love You. ^^
20.What type of person will you fall in love with?
Smart, pretty and somewhat shorter than me. Oh and you must be ADORABLE!
The 8 people who are going to do this quiz:
-Joanna
-Nicole
-Erena
-Kenji
-Iscariot
-Gwen
-Lucas
-MICHMUMMY!
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